So, Supernatural is definitely the most heartbreaking piece of crap show ever. (By this I mean that I love it and I hate its ability to break my heart and it's wonderfulness and goddamn attractive and endearing cast/character list.)
The most recent episode, "The Mentalist," literally made me curl around a pillow in a fetal position with every intent to cry epic tears of ugly crying.
Seriously. Two frickin' lines. That's all it took.
WHY DO THEY KEEP TEASING US ABOUT ELLEN?! HAVEN'T WE THE FANS, let alone Sam and Dean, SUFFERED HER LOSS ENOUGH?
How dare they have her mom-ing from the grave! It's painful to think that even in death she's watching out for the boys and trying to help Dean because she can tell he's in a butt-ton of pain.
**Side note: My roommates and I watched this episode in my parents' basement while my mom was home. I mentioned that my mom might watch with us if she was bored enough and my roommate was concerned considering how often we squeal and generally make grabby hands at the TV during these episodes.
I told my roommate not to worry about it- I think my mom will understand that if there's anything even hinting at gay or Cas or gay and Cas we're dead to the world.
End side note***
Anyway! So I love that they're bringing back that whole "let's all mistake Sam and Dean for a gay couple" thing. They even threw in some Campbells that were "brothers" as a cover up- LOL!
But, long story short, we're all missing Cas. A lot. Especially Dean.
GAH! MORE CAPSLOCK IS NECESSARY FOR THIS!
EVER SINCE CAS BETRAYED HIM, DEAN HAS HAD A HARD TIME TRUSTING PEOPLE.
(In the interest of full disclosure- this had me in a fetal position so fast it's almost embarrassing.) Dean misses his angel and felt so betrayed that he can't even really trust is own brother T_T
I WEEP!
I'm convinced that Cas is coming back as a human. Nothing short of it happening differently will convince me otherwise.
(Also- the horrible part of me is glad this Amy bullshit is done. Seriously. I was tired of it the second episode they mentioned it.)
Friday, November 4, 2011
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
NaNo!!!
For those of you who don't recognize this term outside of it meaning tiny, NaNoWriMo means National Novel Writing Month- which November is.
The purpose of this is to encourage writers to write 50,000 words in one month (about 1,666 words a day)- this is about the equivalent of a 200-page book. It's supposed to be a finished story- but I don't think anyone is too disappointed if they reach the goal but aren't finished.
Anyway, I've always been interested in doing this. But I have a terrible habit of not being able to write anything of decent length (to date, my longest story was a little over 6,000 words).
But now- novel idea in hand, a job I don't particularly care for, and epic amounts of computer time available, I will begin this challenge!!!
So sit back and enjoy the ride as I will undoubtedly be coming on here to whine about how I have writer's block or how my story sucks!
Hopefully you'll get daily updates on whether or not I'm succeeding!
The purpose of this is to encourage writers to write 50,000 words in one month (about 1,666 words a day)- this is about the equivalent of a 200-page book. It's supposed to be a finished story- but I don't think anyone is too disappointed if they reach the goal but aren't finished.
Anyway, I've always been interested in doing this. But I have a terrible habit of not being able to write anything of decent length (to date, my longest story was a little over 6,000 words).
But now- novel idea in hand, a job I don't particularly care for, and epic amounts of computer time available, I will begin this challenge!!!
So sit back and enjoy the ride as I will undoubtedly be coming on here to whine about how I have writer's block or how my story sucks!
Hopefully you'll get daily updates on whether or not I'm succeeding!
Thursday, October 27, 2011
I miss sunlight...
So, I still work a night job at a hotel. Let me tell you- living in the northern hemisphere and working at night really cuts down on the amount of sunlight I get to see every day.
I go to work after the sun sets, leave work before the sun has risen, and wake up when the sun is setting.
Do you have any idea how depressing a thought that is? I'm practically a vampire! Except minus the drinking blood thing because I personally find that really nasty and distasteful. (Probably because I'm a woman and thus am forced to deal with bleeding I would give almost anything, short of getting preggers, to end.)
Anyway...I really wish I had something exciting to tell the internet, but I really don't.
Still trying to write a book...I have an idea of a plot and some really epically awesome scenes- it's the filling the space in between that gets me.
Why can't I ever have a useful imagination? You know, one that will actually give me a complete story rather than "OH GOD THAT WOULD BE SO COOL!!! AND THIS CAN HAPPEN TOO! AND THIS!!!"
But no, I get stuck with the ADD crackfest that is my brain. I seriously can't do anything without it trying to make me go crazy via awkward observation or plotbunny.(For those of you who aren't down with "fan speak" plotbunny is when there's enough of a hole in a plot for you to run wild with the "what if" scenarios. Or it's just plain hinted at. Whichever.)
Umm....I have been a terrible person and avoided writing this fanfic for about two months now. I feel awful because it was for someone's birthday. But I wrote it three different ways and I wasn't happy with any of them so I figured I would just keep going until I was satisfied and just beg forgiveness when I finally get around to posting it.
I feel incredibly dumb without school. My job doesn't require much thought or education and I like to learn things and I feel like the universe is shrinking around me because I spend all my time working or sleeping. I hate it. No amount of feeling burnt out is worth this disgusting gnawing in my gut that basically tells me my life is over and I wasted four years on an education I'll be paying for for the next ten years and isn't good for anything except saying that I have a BA.
Also- I have no social life. I barely see my roommates for more than a couple hours at a time; and rarely together. Sundays we get together with a few friends and do some home cooking and generally enjoy life...but then I head off to work while they all hang out and watch The Walking Dead.
Okay. That's enough of me being all teenage-level angst and depression for you guys!
I go to work after the sun sets, leave work before the sun has risen, and wake up when the sun is setting.
Do you have any idea how depressing a thought that is? I'm practically a vampire! Except minus the drinking blood thing because I personally find that really nasty and distasteful. (Probably because I'm a woman and thus am forced to deal with bleeding I would give almost anything, short of getting preggers, to end.)
Anyway...I really wish I had something exciting to tell the internet, but I really don't.
Still trying to write a book...I have an idea of a plot and some really epically awesome scenes- it's the filling the space in between that gets me.
Why can't I ever have a useful imagination? You know, one that will actually give me a complete story rather than "OH GOD THAT WOULD BE SO COOL!!! AND THIS CAN HAPPEN TOO! AND THIS!!!"
But no, I get stuck with the ADD crackfest that is my brain. I seriously can't do anything without it trying to make me go crazy via awkward observation or plotbunny.(For those of you who aren't down with "fan speak" plotbunny is when there's enough of a hole in a plot for you to run wild with the "what if" scenarios. Or it's just plain hinted at. Whichever.)
Umm....I have been a terrible person and avoided writing this fanfic for about two months now. I feel awful because it was for someone's birthday. But I wrote it three different ways and I wasn't happy with any of them so I figured I would just keep going until I was satisfied and just beg forgiveness when I finally get around to posting it.
I feel incredibly dumb without school. My job doesn't require much thought or education and I like to learn things and I feel like the universe is shrinking around me because I spend all my time working or sleeping. I hate it. No amount of feeling burnt out is worth this disgusting gnawing in my gut that basically tells me my life is over and I wasted four years on an education I'll be paying for for the next ten years and isn't good for anything except saying that I have a BA.
Also- I have no social life. I barely see my roommates for more than a couple hours at a time; and rarely together. Sundays we get together with a few friends and do some home cooking and generally enjoy life...but then I head off to work while they all hang out and watch The Walking Dead.
Okay. That's enough of me being all teenage-level angst and depression for you guys!
Saturday, September 24, 2011
Supernatural: Season 7 Premier
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Alright, now onto the good stuff.
I didn't know it was possible to both hide in absolute horror and to love an episode so fucking much!
There was so much love but so much not okay between me and the Supernatural premier. I ALMOST CAN'T STAND IT!
Aside from the heartbreak of Cas basically telling them that if he sees Sam, Dean, or Bobby again he will end them- HE DIDN'T KILL THEM RIGHT AWAY!
Also- Dean being called a pet. <3
And the terrible sick scene of dead angels in Castiel's personal favorite corner of Heaven? FUCK YOU PURGATORY SOULS! WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE?!
Anyway, then there's Dean rebuilding the Impala- again. Following Castiel's movements because he wants to know what his poor little lost angel is up to. T_T
AND SAM!!!! AND BOBBY!!! FOREVER TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT TO DO TO SAVE/END CAS!!! (And, on a related note, Dean's utter heartbreak because he can't do anything so he's just gonna fix his damn car. Also, DEAN IN A JUMPSUIT!)
God!Cas is awesome for the following reasons:
1. He's sexy. It's canon and fanon and thus cannot be disputed.
2. He's pansexual, as I've always suspected. He doesn't care who or what it is.
3. He's a complete and utter badass.
4. He smites people- particularly Christians and Republicans which makes me lol greatly.
5. His demeanor makes for some great lines.
God!Cas is not awesome for the following reasons:
1. He allows het fans to interpret his actions as anti-Destiel. (THEY'RE JUST ON A BREAK OKAY?!)
2. He KILLS ANGELS IN AN AUTISTIC MAN'S TUESDAY AFTERNOON!
3. He allows Castiel's once pristine trench coat to fall into disrepair. IT WENT TO HELL AND BACK AND SURVIVED YOU SON OF A BITCH! You smite
4. He destroys Castiel's gorgeous face. (I admit- I was surprised. I didn't think they would pull a "your vessel is too weak!" thing. I figured that was too easy, but ooohhh welll.)
Now, some other amazing things about this episode:
1. BOBBY!!! Loving your boys and believing in Cas! <3
2. CROWLEY!!!! Facial hair and desperately hoping to conspire with the Winchesters! <3
3. SAM!!! I sad!face for you and your crazy! D:
4. IMPALA! YOU'RE BACK YOU BEAUTIFUL PIECE OF METAL! (Stop dying on Dean before he has to make a "don't make me lose you too" speech to you!)
OUR CAS WILL BE BACK! But fuck! Leviathan!Cas is obviously their way of allowing Misha to be himself again. I mean, seriously. What is this? It's like they filmed him pretending Cas went Dark Side and then put it in the episode.
And! Cas- your last word is Dean! How utterly heartbreaking and wonderful at the same time!
...Alright, I should stop. BUT NEXT WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!
Alright, now onto the good stuff.
I didn't know it was possible to both hide in absolute horror and to love an episode so fucking much!
There was so much love but so much not okay between me and the Supernatural premier. I ALMOST CAN'T STAND IT!
Aside from the heartbreak of Cas basically telling them that if he sees Sam, Dean, or Bobby again he will end them- HE DIDN'T KILL THEM RIGHT AWAY!
Also- Dean being called a pet. <3
And the terrible sick scene of dead angels in Castiel's personal favorite corner of Heaven? FUCK YOU PURGATORY SOULS! WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE?!
Anyway, then there's Dean rebuilding the Impala- again. Following Castiel's movements because he wants to know what his poor little lost angel is up to. T_T
AND SAM!!!! AND BOBBY!!! FOREVER TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT TO DO TO SAVE/END CAS!!! (And, on a related note, Dean's utter heartbreak because he can't do anything so he's just gonna fix his damn car. Also, DEAN IN A JUMPSUIT!)
God!Cas is awesome for the following reasons:
1. He's sexy. It's canon and fanon and thus cannot be disputed.
2. He's pansexual, as I've always suspected. He doesn't care who or what it is.
3. He's a complete and utter badass.
4. He smites people- particularly Christians and Republicans which makes me lol greatly.
5. His demeanor makes for some great lines.
God!Cas is not awesome for the following reasons:
1. He allows het fans to interpret his actions as anti-Destiel. (THEY'RE JUST ON A BREAK OKAY?!)
2. He KILLS ANGELS IN AN AUTISTIC MAN'S TUESDAY AFTERNOON!
3. He allows Castiel's once pristine trench coat to fall into disrepair. IT WENT TO HELL AND BACK AND SURVIVED YOU SON OF A BITCH! You smite
4. He destroys Castiel's gorgeous face. (I admit- I was surprised. I didn't think they would pull a "your vessel is too weak!" thing. I figured that was too easy, but ooohhh welll.)
Now, some other amazing things about this episode:
1. BOBBY!!! Loving your boys and believing in Cas! <3
2. CROWLEY!!!! Facial hair and desperately hoping to conspire with the Winchesters! <3
3. SAM!!! I sad!face for you and your crazy! D:
4. IMPALA! YOU'RE BACK YOU BEAUTIFUL PIECE OF METAL! (Stop dying on Dean before he has to make a "don't make me lose you too" speech to you!)
OUR CAS WILL BE BACK! But fuck! Leviathan!Cas is obviously their way of allowing Misha to be himself again. I mean, seriously. What is this? It's like they filmed him pretending Cas went Dark Side and then put it in the episode.
And! Cas- your last word is Dean! How utterly heartbreaking and wonderful at the same time!
...Alright, I should stop. BUT NEXT WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
A Day Well Spent
I got off my night shift at about seven this morning and drove to the nearest Walmart where I purchased season 6 of Supernatural.
The radio knew what I was doing, apparently, and immediately began talking about Jared Padalecki and "the guy who was in Days of Our Lives, whatever his name is." Clearly they're big fans who understand how ridiculed Jensen is by his cast mates.
So at that point I'm like:
Because I'm fairly certain the only reason they would say that is if they were paid to. ...Or else they're massive fans.
Anyway, I woke up around 3 and finished Percy Jackson: The Last Olympian. (WHICH I LOVED. Rick Riordan is one of my favorite people right now.)
Around this time, my roommates were both around and we spent about a half hour thoroughly amusing ourselves by piling onto one of our beds and mocking each other.
We then decided that, instead of making ourselves good, informed, people via a serious discussion about arts by Colum McCann, we would order pizza (which we neither need nor deserve) and watch Supernatural.
We ended up watching the more interesting episodes (read: the ones with enough hilarity and gay that made the other episodes worth it).
I love it. SO. MUCH. I watched like...four or five episodes before work. Which is where I'm at now. Working. :(
The radio knew what I was doing, apparently, and immediately began talking about Jared Padalecki and "the guy who was in Days of Our Lives, whatever his name is." Clearly they're big fans who understand how ridiculed Jensen is by his cast mates.
So at that point I'm like:
Because I'm fairly certain the only reason they would say that is if they were paid to. ...Or else they're massive fans.
Anyway, I woke up around 3 and finished Percy Jackson: The Last Olympian. (WHICH I LOVED. Rick Riordan is one of my favorite people right now.)
Around this time, my roommates were both around and we spent about a half hour thoroughly amusing ourselves by piling onto one of our beds and mocking each other.
We then decided that, instead of making ourselves good, informed, people via a serious discussion about arts by Colum McCann, we would order pizza (which we neither need nor deserve) and watch Supernatural.
We ended up watching the more interesting episodes (read: the ones with enough hilarity and gay that made the other episodes worth it).
I love it. SO. MUCH. I watched like...four or five episodes before work. Which is where I'm at now. Working. :(
Monday, August 1, 2011
Porn on the Internet (Or,This is when my mother weeps)
I have a bone to pick with some of the statistics floating around in the news. Okay...it's actually just one statistic and my mother will be horrified to read this but I need to get this out!
A recent statistic claims that social networking sites are not the number one use of internet.
I DO NOT AND WILL NOT BELIEVE THIS! EVER!
I'm sorry, but there's just no way that porn- the thing that has dominated the internet since it was born- would be taken over by Facebook.
Seriously- I refuse to believe it.
Now, I can understand the concept of social networking sites getting more traffic- Facebook alone probably has more unique users per day than all the porn combined. This makes sense, as it's accessible to people of all ages and generally won't offend the crazy old hairy bald guy walking behind you while you enjoy some internet.
But, the majority of the time it's a brief check to respond to an invite, look at a picture or post one was tagged in, or to upload pictures or whatnot.
The other 97% of the time you're on a porn website with Facebook open just for funsies.
I mean...come on. We're actually just a generation of creepers. We sometimes spend hours creeping around on profiles or through pictures, but I would say that's a small portion of Facebook users.
And they're just too embarrassed to watch porn...or they have no friends and have already watched all the porn.
But porn requires attention. You're certainly not going to spend an hour downloading a video- risking the health of your computer- just to have it on in the background.
Not to mention that there's so much more than just videos! There's all kinds of written smut on the internet, all kinds of comics and images in general that I would bet my nonexistent love life get more, uh, quality time than any social networking site.
But yeah, I guess my overall point is that while social networking sites may get a gazillion hits per day, they will never uproot porn from its place at the top.
A recent statistic claims that social networking sites are not the number one use of internet.
I DO NOT AND WILL NOT BELIEVE THIS! EVER!
I'm sorry, but there's just no way that porn- the thing that has dominated the internet since it was born- would be taken over by Facebook.
Seriously- I refuse to believe it.
Now, I can understand the concept of social networking sites getting more traffic- Facebook alone probably has more unique users per day than all the porn combined. This makes sense, as it's accessible to people of all ages and generally won't offend the crazy old hairy bald guy walking behind you while you enjoy some internet.
But, the majority of the time it's a brief check to respond to an invite, look at a picture or post one was tagged in, or to upload pictures or whatnot.
The other 97% of the time you're on a porn website with Facebook open just for funsies.
I mean...come on. We're actually just a generation of creepers. We sometimes spend hours creeping around on profiles or through pictures, but I would say that's a small portion of Facebook users.
And they're just too embarrassed to watch porn...or they have no friends and have already watched all the porn.
But porn requires attention. You're certainly not going to spend an hour downloading a video- risking the health of your computer- just to have it on in the background.
Not to mention that there's so much more than just videos! There's all kinds of written smut on the internet, all kinds of comics and images in general that I would bet my nonexistent love life get more, uh, quality time than any social networking site.
But yeah, I guess my overall point is that while social networking sites may get a gazillion hits per day, they will never uproot porn from its place at the top.
Sunday, July 31, 2011
COMIC-CON!!!!!!!!!
So I went to Comic-Con International out in San Diego last week. This had been a life goal of mine for about ten years- TOTALLY DESERVED IT!
It was so wonderful! I got to walk around with roughly 30,000 people who mostly understood every reference I could imagine making.
Seriously, I don't know if I could have had a better time (aside from the fact that we missed our plane connections both ways because Delta kinda sucks apparently).
My friends and I were out there for a week and it was amazing! The weather was perfect (though we all got sunburned), the con was great, SeaWorld is FANTASTIC, and all around we had a great time as a group.
Also, I GOT TO HUG VIC MIGNOGNA!!!! And got his autograph! And he liked my shirt!!!!
AND I GOT TO SEE MISHA COLLINS IN PERSON! (Though I didn't get to give him the shirt I bought for him back in February >_> probably a good thing.) I also got to see JENSEN ACKLES and JARED PADALECKI!!! (But I haven't posted about how they should take over the world so they're a little less relevant to this post BUT NOT BY MUCH!!!)
Every Supernatural person that I love was there! Including Jim Beaver and Mark Sheppard (since the jerk couldn't come to ValleyCon where I could actually speak to him). The only ones missing were Richard Speight Jr. and Sebastian Roche (again, probably a good thing because I have loved Sebastian Roche for about fourteen years and probably would have told him that I miss his long curly hair even though I don't!!).
I also purchased a pre-signed Misha Collins autograph card just because I could. He came with a side helping of Rob Benedict and Julie McNiven! Yay!
Let's see...I MET SHERRILYN KENYON!!! The woman who practically destroyed any hope I have of being a normal person with her delicious smutty romance novels!! I told her to just write the next book in this one series and she told me she had rewritten it twice! I can't even bring myself to write enough for one book!!!
Um...I saw the Being Human cast and loved loved loved Sam Huntington telling us that he, Meaghan, and Sam Witwer had all had sex together, even if it wasn't true.
Dear God! I SAW JASON ISAACS!!! He stopped by the Harry Potter fandom panel and we were all like "OMG WE LOVE YOU EVEN THOUGH YOU PLAY A BAD GUY!!!"
Lastly- THEY GIVE AWAY SO MUCH SWAG THEY ALSO GIVE OUT BAGS TO HOLD IT ALL! I got like...four free shirts, three free books, seven different magazines and comics, a couple free bags if you include this lovely bag. Isn't it beautiful? I had to steal mine from some woman because I got frickin' Vampire Diaries which meant I was never getting anything for that crap.
Onto more serious things (not really), I kept a terrific video journal of what all we were doing and on which days. As soon as I get my computer to properly function, I will try uploading video to this bad boy! My brother got a good laugh out of them when I screened them...they're really bad and have swearing in them but I enjoyed doing it for all of 10 minutes on the trip!
Finally, as I mentioned SeaWorld before I want to say it again- it is FANTASTIC! If you ever have the chance to go, DO IT! (Bring lots and lots of sunscreen and water bottles!)
It was so wonderful! I got to walk around with roughly 30,000 people who mostly understood every reference I could imagine making.
Seriously, I don't know if I could have had a better time (aside from the fact that we missed our plane connections both ways because Delta kinda sucks apparently).
My friends and I were out there for a week and it was amazing! The weather was perfect (though we all got sunburned), the con was great, SeaWorld is FANTASTIC, and all around we had a great time as a group.
Also, I GOT TO HUG VIC MIGNOGNA!!!! And got his autograph! And he liked my shirt!!!!
AND I GOT TO SEE MISHA COLLINS IN PERSON! (Though I didn't get to give him the shirt I bought for him back in February >_> probably a good thing.) I also got to see JENSEN ACKLES and JARED PADALECKI!!! (But I haven't posted about how they should take over the world so they're a little less relevant to this post BUT NOT BY MUCH!!!)
Every Supernatural person that I love was there! Including Jim Beaver and Mark Sheppard (since the jerk couldn't come to ValleyCon where I could actually speak to him). The only ones missing were Richard Speight Jr. and Sebastian Roche (again, probably a good thing because I have loved Sebastian Roche for about fourteen years and probably would have told him that I miss his long curly hair even though I don't!!).
I also purchased a pre-signed Misha Collins autograph card just because I could. He came with a side helping of Rob Benedict and Julie McNiven! Yay!
Let's see...I MET SHERRILYN KENYON!!! The woman who practically destroyed any hope I have of being a normal person with her delicious smutty romance novels!! I told her to just write the next book in this one series and she told me she had rewritten it twice! I can't even bring myself to write enough for one book!!!
Um...I saw the Being Human cast and loved loved loved Sam Huntington telling us that he, Meaghan, and Sam Witwer had all had sex together, even if it wasn't true.
Dear God! I SAW JASON ISAACS!!! He stopped by the Harry Potter fandom panel and we were all like "OMG WE LOVE YOU EVEN THOUGH YOU PLAY A BAD GUY!!!"
Lastly- THEY GIVE AWAY SO MUCH SWAG THEY ALSO GIVE OUT BAGS TO HOLD IT ALL! I got like...four free shirts, three free books, seven different magazines and comics, a couple free bags if you include this lovely bag. Isn't it beautiful? I had to steal mine from some woman because I got frickin' Vampire Diaries which meant I was never getting anything for that crap.
Onto more serious things (not really), I kept a terrific video journal of what all we were doing and on which days. As soon as I get my computer to properly function, I will try uploading video to this bad boy! My brother got a good laugh out of them when I screened them...they're really bad and have swearing in them but I enjoyed doing it for all of 10 minutes on the trip!
Finally, as I mentioned SeaWorld before I want to say it again- it is FANTASTIC! If you ever have the chance to go, DO IT! (Bring lots and lots of sunscreen and water bottles!)
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